5 years…

and we still miss you…

we love you pa.

old days

acceptance

i miss…

reading a really good book.

long walks.

meaningless, long and loud phone conversations with my old friends.

writing letters to friends, cousins and my parents.

homemade hamburgers and halohalo.

my old room in our old house.

dinner with my complete family.

afternoon talks with papa when we were still young everytime we wait for dinner to be ready.

cooking with mama.

the feeling of peace and calm after a long and good prayer.

top 5 kwentong papa

many years ago, noong bata pa ako favorite akong kwentuhan ni papa ng kung anu ano. syempre ako naman, kasi bilib na bilib sa kanya at overwhelmed as attention na binibigay nya (busy kasi papa ko nun sa pagkayod para sa future ng mga bibong anak)… attentive ako at naniniwala sa lahat ng sinasabi nya. as years passby (minsan ha hindi pa inabot ng one year) na realize ko din na hindi lahat ng sinasabi nya totoo… meron iba e results lang ng kanyang vivid imagination at makulay na story telling.

tanda ko pa kaya kung anu ano ang mga yun… pero eto ang top 5…

1. nabulag dahil sa kape

umaga… nilalabanan ko nun ang sobrang antok pa, umiinom ako ng kape nun (take note, bata palang caffeine addict na ko…) sa tasa at nakasawsaw pa din ang kutsara na pinanghalo ko.

papa : naku… alam mo ba na meron nabulag dahil sa kape?

ako (nagising bigla, natakot dahil ayokong mabulag) : ha….. papano?

papa : kasi pag-inom nya ng kape nya na nakasawsaw pa rin ang kutsara, natusok nung kutsara ang mata nya, ayun nabulag. kaya alisin mo yang kutsara kung iinom ka na sa tasa.

kaya naman pala… (whew! safe ako…)

2. ang taga-sisid

nanonood ng basketball si papa nun at titig na titig sa tv. ako naman nasa malapit sa tabi nya gumagawa ng assignment.

ako : papa, ano bang ginagawa mo sa trabaho pag pumapasok ka? assignment namin eh… what does your father do?

deadma si papa. titig pa din sa tv.

anak : pa? ano na?

papa : ha?

ako : what does your father do daw? (sabay turo sa notebook)

papa (titig pa rin sa tv) : isulat mo dyan sumisisid ako sa langis.

natulala ako. kawawa naman si papa! papano nya ginagawa yun? madulas ang langis. papano sya aahon? hindi sya makakahawak sa kahit ano dahil puro langis sya. dudulas yun at baka malunod sya!

so, pumunta ako ke mama at kinukwento ang sinabi ni papa. tinanong ko kung papano sya umaahon.

mama : ano?! sumisisid sa langis? walang gumagawa nun. wag ka maniwala sa papa mo. ilagay mo dyan – my father is a refinery engineer.

ah…

3. ang toothache

nasa sulok ako at umiiyak… pero quietly ha, mahinhin ako nung bata eh. nilapitan ako ni papa at inakay papuntang sofa.

papa : masakit pa rin ngipin mo?

ako : opo.

papa : o sige, kukunin ko na yung sakit para maka kain ka na ha?

ako : ha? sige.

nilagay nya kamay nya sa pisngi ko, kunwari bumulong bulong tapos kunwari meron kinuha sa pisngi ko nilagay sa bibig nya at nilunok.

papa (todo acting sya) : aray.. aray… ang sakit ng ngipin ko! o ayan ha, kinuha ko na yung sakit. aray… aray… masakit pa ngipin mo?

ako (naaawa na ke papa dahil mukhang namimilipit na sya sa sakit ng ngipin) : ah…. hindi na po.

papa : ok! o tara kain ka na.

pero actually, masakit pa rin ngipin ko. hindi ko lang masabi sa kanya na hindi umipekto ang magic nya.

4. ang siling labuyo

me pagka-bully nun ang ate ko… tapos ako naman utu-uto. so nung nasa garden kami, lumapit kami sa halaman na siling labuyo namin. sabi nya masarap daw yun, so pumitas ako at kinain (matakaw din ako nun eh). so ayun, cry-me-a-river na naman ang drama ko.  

masakit na ulo ni papa nun kakaiyak ko. so…

papa : o eto, kumain ka ng friend chicken mawawala ang anghang nyan.

kain naman ako… maanghang pa din.

papa : eto, sugar mawawala na yan. sige na.

kain ako sugar… huhuhu… maanghang pa din!

papa : inom ka ng tubig, mawawala na talaga yan. totoo na to.

susme! isang pitsel na nainom ko maanghang pa din! ano ba!!! inuuto na naman ako ng papa ko…

5. baby

magandang baby kasi nun ang ate ko ang ang bunso namin. cute na cute! kaya naman ang dami nilang pictures. ako, sabi ni papa… 

papa : naku, kung nakita mo itsura mo nung baby ka. ang pangit mo. bilog na bilog ka, pulang pula ang mukha mo. yung pisngi mo natatabunan ang ilong mo. para kang ensaymada. hahahaha!!!

kaya siguro 4 or 5 lang ang baby pictures ko sa bahay… pero minsan narinig ko sya kausap ang tita nya na lola namin.

papa : tingnan mo yung pangalawa ko. kamukha ni inang. kuhang kuha nya ang hugis ng mukha.

eh sabi nya sa akin dati maganda daw si lola

pero kahit unti unti ko nadidiscover kaya nya ko favorite kwentuhan kasi ako ang pinaka gullible sa aming magkakapatid. isa akong certified papa’s girl

tattoo

4 years old lang nun si drew barrymore nang kuhain sya ng ninong nya na si stephen spielberg para gumanap na gertie sa movie na ET. sobrang favorite namin to nung bata, at gustung gusto ko nun si drew barrymore. cute and innocent pa sya nun.

ayan sya… bago sya maging alcoholic at the age of 11 at bago sya makipag divorce ng 3x na ata? at isa sa mga bisyo ni drew alam nyo ba? ang magpa tattoo???

meron syang quarter moon sa hinlalaki nya sa paa, meron din syang rosary sa paa din ata, fish sa likod ng malapit sa ankle, meron syang crucifix sa leg, butterfly sa stomach at meron pang iba na hindi ko pa nababalitaan.

this one is what surprised me most : nakita ko to sa www.tattooblog.org … the writes featured top celebrity couple tattoo blunders …

Drew Barrymore carved the name of her then-fiance Jamie Walters on her lower back and the two ended after six months. The colors on her tattoo bled together until it became unreadable which she later covered up by an angel holding a cross.

nakakaloka diba? masyado syang in-love (o lokaloka) to do it! imagine going through the pain of having a tattoo, then revising it???

pero in fairness maganda pa rin si drew at dalang dala nya.

kung ako kaya, ano ang ipapalagay kong tattoo?

gusto ko ng angel…

 

o kaya tribute sa parents ko…

but then again, duwag ako at mababa ang tolerance ko for pain. at wala akong patience umupo ng ilang oras para dito. yung dentist appointment nga dine-delay ko as much as i can eh… hehehe. hindi rin ako nagpapa henna eh… so, wag nalang!

photos from imdb and google images.

missing you

for papa and mama…

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin on the block for dough
Notorious, they got to know that
Life ain’t always what it seem to be
Words can’t express what you mean to me
Even though you’re gone, we still a team
Through your family, I’ll fulfill your dream (that’s right)
In the future, can’t wait to see
If you open up the gates for me
Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend (uh-huh)
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it’s real, feelings hard to conceal
Can’t imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living your life, after death

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I’ll be missing you
Thinkin of the days, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I’ll be missing you

I miss you Big
It’s kinda hard with you not around
Know you in heaven smilin down
Watchin us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I’ll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts Big I just can’t define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Makin hits, stages they receive you on
I still can’t believe you’re gone (can’t believe you’re gone)
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living you’re life, after death

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I’ll be missing you
Thinkin of the days, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I’ll be missing you

Somebody tell me why
One Black Morning
When this life is over
I know
I’ll see your face

Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every day that passes
Every move I make, every single day
Is a day that I get closer
To seeing you again
Every night I pray, every step I take
We miss you Big… and we won’t stop
Every move I make, every single day
Cause we can’t stop… that’s right
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
We miss you Big

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I’ll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I’ll be missing you

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I’ll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I’ll be missing you

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I’ll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I’ll be missing you